917
And that, my dears, is a very good jump.
First fetal ultrasound is scheduled for Thursday morning at 11am. Which surprises me; for some reason I thought I had to wait another week or two. Does anyone know what they can see that early?
Now I'm feeling kind of weird; maybe it's the hormones, or maybe it's the fact that I wasn't able to sleep again last night (so much for first trimester exhaustion--I can't sleep more than one night in three). I feel sad, and weirdly blank; it's like someone pulled off my infertility banner before the pregnancy one got made at the factory, and I'm not sure how to be. I'm snapping at my husband, I called out sick to work, and I can't seem to make myself not watch TV.
What's wrong with me? I'm supposed to be ecstatic!
Oh, and it could have something to do with weighing myself at my neighbors this morning. I went over there to check my new email account, which is the new Google email because I have a MAC at home and gmail only works with PC's. Yeah. So of course I saw their scale (I don't own one) and weighed myself.
I have gained 45 lbs in the last year of fertility treatments, and now, pregnancy. I'm totally disgusted with myself. I stopped working out back in February. I feel pathetic. And now, I'm pregnant, and have to gain more weight. Holy shit.
Oh, I'll stop typing, I'm even annoying myself now. Bleck.
beautiful numbers. absolutely beautiful. I'm guessing the scan is to check for multiples?
Ah yes, the joys and inadequacies following infertility weight gain. I promised myself if something comes of these medicated cycles, I *will* join aqua aerobics. All the pg ladies do it and well, it can't hurt to *try* and fit in with other pg ladies.
Many, many congrats to you, your womb and your husband!
Posted by:Jen P | June 28, 2004 at 05:33 PM
Big congrats on your beta number! Fabulous news.
Cecily, I can very much relate to the scale shock you've written about. Infertility treatments can certainly pack on the pounds quickly. There aren't many women who don't gain some weight during treatments. This is not the time to worry about your weight, though. It's the only time in a woman's life when watching her belly grow is a happy, exciting, miraculous experience. Try to enjoy it and worry about dieting next year.
All my best to you!
Posted by:Danae | June 28, 2004 at 06:13 PM
It's to check for multiples--my SIL had one that early with her pg in January.
The good news is that it's much easier to lose weight post-partum that at any other time for a lot of women. It just kind of melts off. OK, so really it gets sucked out of you through the nipples, but you know what I mean.
I think you don't feel ecstatic because it's not that real yet. Blood tests are one thing, but real symptoms and feeling the baby move and wearing maternity clothes are another. Don't feel bad for not really connecting with it yet.
Posted by:Moxie | June 28, 2004 at 06:18 PM
It. Will. Go. Away. After the baby!
For now, be ecstatic and happy! Vorry about the pesky pounds latah, girlie. Leave the vorrying about fatness to us ladies who are adopting!!
CONGRATS, sweetums!
Posted by:Karen | June 28, 2004 at 09:46 PM
Honey you deserve it. Enjoy it. You have earned the right to be happy, and to have your hearts desire. Your mother banner is being encrusted with jewels, babe, that's why it's taking so long.
Posted by:Sam | June 29, 2004 at 07:31 AM
Good news, good news! Try not to worry about the weight. As a non-svelte girl myself, I have to admit the idea of gaining weight in pregnancy makes me hyperventilate a bit, but it is for a greater good.....
Posted by:Lisa | June 29, 2004 at 12:30 PM