There's no point to being a pessimist. It doesn't work anyway.

So said my Honest Tea the other day.

Can I just tell you? I hate today.

Today I was going to go camping. But it's going to rain all weekend. This makes me want to weep.

Charlie is still sick and can't see the doctor he needs to for three weeks, no matter how much pain he's in. This has been going on for almost a month now, and I'm finding it very hard to be patient with Charlie. Because I'm a bitch like that. And that makes me want to weep.

We're looking at houses again today, including one that's a serious possibility, but we won't have the money for a down payment until late next week, so we'll probably lose this house, and that also just makes me want to weep.

My period started. Weeping should commence any moment.

I hate today.

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Here are the other random thoughts in my head today.

Does it bother anyone else that the new Pope used to be a Nazi? OK, it was Hitler Youth, OK, it was compulsory, but still. It's creepy.

Why, oh why, is anyone even still CONSIDERING John Bolton for the UN post? This guy actually chased an employee down a hallway while throwing things at them. Nice. Hey, W: I hear Colin Powell needs a job. Hello?

How exciting is it that all you people with a slightly-higher-than-normal BMI are actually the healthiest people in America?

Elise's husband has a brilliant idea to solve the gay marriage issue. Let's eliminate marriage altogether! The government should sanction ONLY civil unions between everyone, and let the church be in charge of marriage! I think it could work. And here's an interesting note--the Supreme Court in Spain just ruled that gay marriage should be allowed.

That's all I got folks. What are your random thoughts today?

Comments

[Julie]

Well aren't you just the weepy one. You know, just because you don't have your down payment in hand doesn't mean you can't get the house. I think if you will be able to have it together in a week that is all that matters. Shit, we put down a small amount w/our bid and then a little more with our final bid and then the whole down payment about a week later.

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

Oh, and I'm getting my period today or tomorrow so we can just have ourselves a big fucking cryfest k?

[Sandy]

Well, I'm due to start tomorrow or the next day, but am feeling weirdly unweepy, so can't join the weep fest. Of course, why would I even think there might be a remote chance that my period won't start tomorrow or the next day...not even on my radar as a possibility (oh my how I lie). It sucks when you're coming down on yourself for not having patience with your sick honey but OH. MY. GOD. they can whine can't they????? (Sorry Charlie...I think the whine gets issued with the penis at birth...just my opinion). Mine has been suffering with an injury since mid March and I'm tired of smiling while I say "gee, hope you get better soon". Other random thoughts for me ... not gonna use the bmi thing as an excuse to eat today, although I'd dearly love to. Hope the house stuff pans out.

[dish]

The only random thought getting me through today is that it's Friday.

Sorry that yours is sucking so badly.

[Lisa S (& Riley, Bella, & Adelyn)]

I also thought of you immediately when news of that study came out, the one that says that thin kills as much as fat and chubby is healthier than not. But then I saw a doc on TV today who stated that the study is flawed because it included people who were "emaciated" due to illness (eg Cancer, Diabetes, etc). Therefore, the study may be spuriously in favor of slightly overweight people seeming healthier than they are.

I thought it was interesting, even if a bit disheartening. Guess I should put down the twinkie.

I mean, since you're already weeping, why shouldn't I be the bearer of potential bad news?

Seriously, hope that you are feeling up again soon. I'm having a down day myself. I'll keep my fingers crossed for your house - I think that a reasonable person could wait an extra few days for a down payment if you had the winning bid, right?

I think the Nazi thing is creepy too, btw. And I was hoping for a more progressive voice for the Catholic Church, and maybe some diversity - they could have picked someone Latino, or the Black Cardinal (from Nigeria? The way I capitalized that, it looks like he's a superhero...New on Justice League! The Black Cardinal!!) they were considering. Now THAT would have been interesting.

[Sarah]

Random thoughts from Sarah...I spilled my instant rice-noodle soup from Trader Joe's BEFORE I even added the hot water. I got another one, and proceeded to watch as I let the hot water burn my thumb while I held the bowl to the spout before finally putting the bowl down and moving my thumb.
It's Friday...the way my kid and I have been interacting I'm wondering what the hell I was thinking having her stay with me this weekend instead of going to her dad's...
...I like matzoh balls and fishloaf.

[erin]

You should totally be able to bid on the house without actually having the money for the full downpayment. Here's hoping its the right house for you and Charlie!

[Jessica]

I love Honest Tea. My little college's coffee house used to have it. The Assam, and the Black Forest Berry... mmmm. How's that for random?

[Catherine]

Sorry you're feeling weepy. Stupid estrogen. :)

Does it bother me that the new Pope used to be a Nazi? Not nearly as much as it bothers me that he's a fucking Right Wing zealot who's known as "God's Enforcer" and who's going to set the church back even further than it already is, who called the priest pedophelia business in the US a "false conspiracy to make the Catholic church look bad", who will continue to take an insane view of birth control, allowing AIDS to continue to spread unchecked across the entire continent of Africa, and who's just generally a prick.

I don't exactly recommend Colin Powell for the UN job, since it appears he DELIBERATELY LIED TO THEM about the WMD's in Iraq.

Oh, and I'm about to quit my fucking job...seriously.

[Jo-Ann]

WHAT??!?!?!?!? No Camping?!?!?! I was sooooo looking forward to smelling the fire vicariously this week.

I am sorry you are having a down day.

BTW at work we sre calling the pope - Pope Scary I.....all week. We think he looks like Damien from the Omen all grown up

Random thought
When is the next time I can sleep!!! Can I take a nap at my desk and not get caught???

[Cat, Galloping]

I like the quote from a former employee that Bolton is a kiss-up, kick-down kind of guy. (Incidentally, a former manager of mine once through a book at a guy's head and the next day the employee had a heart attack! I totally think the boss has a future in the Bush administration. As a diplomat.)

Also? There are rumors that the pope is actually Jewish! Courtesy of my mother: http://www.jewwatch.com/jew-religions-christianity-penetration-pope-john-paul-2-jewish-news-release.html

Random thought of the day: We don't do much more than the Four Questions at our Passover seder, which are supposed to be done by the youngest person present. I have been that person for the past 29 years (!) and am praying that my 5-year-old nephew (who has no excuses because he has been reading since the age of 2) does not chicken out this year so I can finally pass the torch.

[tracy]

Add me to the chorus of posters going "Downpayment? Must have? To make an offer? WTF?" Not around here. Earnest money, yes, but that's only $1000 (not that a thousand bucks is chump change, but it's a lot smaller than a down payment).

[Sonetka]

I'm sorry about the camping being washed out - and period-induced crying attacks SUCK. They're so miserable they don't deserve a more elegant word :).

Re the Pope: well, it would bother me that he used to be a Nazi if he had, in fact, *been* a Nazi, but I'm not going to point fingers at a fourteen-year-old whose choice was essentially "Join the Hitlerjugend or we may take you and your family on a fun outing to a concentration camp, or maybe just shoot you, depending on what kind of day we're having." I know, I know, he could have defied them, but I'm tired of seeing internet armchair heroes (I'm NOT talking about anyone here) acting like not resisting to the utmost was the moral equivalent of running the ovens. Part of me really wants to say "For Chrissake, like most of you would have been any better at fourteen."

[Beth]

Sorry you are feeling down. My randon thoughts of today: Why in the hell (after 2 weeks of beautiful spring weather) does it have to be storming here today, and bringing very cold weather behind it? For Pete's sake...there are snow flurries in our forecast!!!
Sorry, it sounds like you are getting the rain we have had for the last 2 days.

[Beth]

BTW...thanks for the Honest Tea link. I have never heard of it and it sounds wonderful. Especially on a cold raining weekend (see above comment). I will be heading to the store for some.

[Miriam]

Oh, just to add to your list of sucky things in life, have you heard about the lesbian couple in Texas who lost their jobs as teacher/coach & bus driver because the school snooped around and found out they were gay? Or that Texas is going to ban gay foster parents?

And while we're at it, my girlfriend is being scolded at the supposed-liberal private school where she teaches, because she talked (mainly answered questions) with her middle-school students about her experiences being in a lesbian relationship on a day when the school recognized the Day of Silence and showed a movie about persecution of gay people!? Okay, the only silver lining on that one is that her students were totally cool about the whole thing, asking all kinds of interesting questions -- so perhaps there's hope for the future...

But in the meantime, we're totally moving to Spain.

[dawna]

I totally understand the irritation with the whiny husband, and agree with Sandy with the penis/birth thing. But then, boys tend to lean towards their mothers, thus being more babied, and girls tend to lean toward their fathers(if one is available during young childhood) picking up that "man" attitude. At least I did. Women are usually stronger all around I think.
As far as the bmi thing, WOO! Love that. I feel I'm perfectly healthy at the weight I am, though I'd like to drop a few pounds get rid of some of the baby fat the four consecutive pregnancies(3 lost) caused. But then, I'm attractive enough the way I am, so does it really matter? I'll stay fat and happy and according to that study, healthy, and skip the whole psycho diet/starvation/depression thing. I'm terribly unhappy and just feel like crap when I don't eat what I want when I want, so is it really worth it to be skinny?? nah. I posted my big thought of the day on my blog, so I'll just leave this as it is.

[KelliAmanda]

My random thoughts...why does my head have to hurt now that it's friday? Didn't hurt Monday...gotta wait until the almost weekend to start hurting.

Also, why is it that few people question the "scientific studies" reported by the CDC that say fat/overweight/obesity is bad/a killer/the end of the world, etc., but everyone (nearly) is questioning the new statement from the CDC saying that fat isn't as evil as they once claimed? Why do most people automatically assume that the more "pro-fat" studies and statements are wrong, but the "anti-fat" studies and statements are absolutely correct??

Why the fuck are people so fucking scared of fat? Why do they hate it so much?

Can't people see that the fear of fat is no different than the fear of any other attribute that sets us apart from one another?

/rant.

[Anon]

My Jewish husband said the same thing to me about the Pope. To which I pointed out to him my German father, who my husband adores, was part of the compulsory Hilter Youth at a very young age. It doesn't bother me that the Pope participated, but his current strict conservative standpoints are disturbing. If anything, I think my father is more sensitive and reactive to racism and bigotry than most people b/c of his life in Germany. My father was a staunch supporter of civil rights in this country (and his big test to my mother was to make sure she would go to his primarily Black church), he worked for the U.S. Army at 15 as a translator in Germany, and proudly served after graduating from high school after moving here. Living in Germany at that time was horrible for a lot of people and threats of arrest or being taken away was an everyday fear. What's creepy is that such a society existed that made it compulsory. I have to agree with Sonetka.

[j]

Sorry your day is so sucky.

Here are my random thoughts:

Diet Pepsi should be nutritious and its own food group.

That Al's story about her father (http://www.damnmillionaires.com/archive/2005_04_17_index.html) is the funniest thing I've read today.

That Mimi Smartypants' story about Nora (bottom of this entry -- http://smartypants.diaryland.com/041905.html ) is the funniest thing I read yesterday.

That I really want to go camping too and it's only 98 days until my big camping trip at the beach with my friends.

That onion rings and other deep fried veggies are a very bad idea for lunch. Especially when they're half frozen AND I'm supposed to be losing weight here.

That helping my mother clean out her den/basement tomorrow because of a flood is going to be complicated by more rain and 16 C temps. But at least I get to go shopping first.

That I'm really just a big whiny arse who should go home.

That I wish you lived here so I could be your friend for real.

That I'm looking forward to finishing "By The Shores of Silver Lake" for the eleventy-millionth time in my life, but the first time in well over a decade. Did you read the Little House books? I still love them and started re-reading them because of the new miniseries on ABC (dramatic conclusion tomorrow night!).

Sending you lots of cheer and the soothing treat of your choice,

j

[MollieBee]

Today sucks major ass.

I get more respect for my job at home than I do at my office. I'm sick and tired of being shit on because I work 30 hrs a week there rather than 40. I'm not pregnant. I have to have a septoplasty so I can breathe, and a big ugly cyst cut off my face. I have to have 2 wisdom teeth removed as well. I am a broken sack of shit. I hate men and my mom.

That's about it for now!

[aj.]

Can I have a little bit of that whine as well? Of course, maybe I shouldn't be listening to Carole King's "Tapestry" and realizing that the end of my ten year relationship can be summed up in the one line from "It's Too Late" - "One of us is changing/or maybe we just stopped trying." But at least one positive thing today - I at least got a "hey, get got your resume" e-mail from one of the many jobs I've been applying for ... the only one out of 20 or so! What happened to a polite "yes we got your resume form e-mail"? Even worse, what happened to a form rejection letter? I'd even take a form rejection e-mail! Good luck on the house... actually, I think my best friend just bought a house in the same town you're looking at, and I've been staying there (although I'm at my parents writing this right now). The only think keeping me cheery is a book called "Bubblegum Music is the Naked Truth" edited by Kim Cooper.

[Melessa]

My random thoughts are that I never should have gone back for my Master's degree. I'm too old for all-nighters. I have a 20 page paper and a 10 page project due in the coming week and I'm still buried in the reading assignments for them. My kids won't stop fighting and screaming (and crinkling those stupid plastic Wal_mart bags-I HATE that!). My house is a wreck because DH's promise to "help out" since I was busy was really just a promise not to say anything about the house being a disaster area until my projects were done. Did I mention we are supposed to be moving next week too?!

I'm sorry you are feeling weepy, but I'm very happy to find someone to cry with today. I should get back to reading now...or pulling out my hair...they both sound good.

[anonymousey]

Whee! I'm healthier than I thought I was!

I wanted to donate eggs to the cryobank here in town but they said I needed to weigh no more than 30% over my recommended body weight. Translation: I would have to be somewhere in the range of 120-140 pounds. When I weighed 180 I was only wearing a size 10. That's not big. If I weighed 120 lbs I would be emaciated.

Random thought:

Did you hear that the "Wendy's Chili Finger" was *planted* in the chili by the lady who was going to sue the company? I heard that today. Makes me wonder if it's really that easy to get a finger in this country...

[sandy]

nazi? traditional/hierarchical/catholic who started priesthood studies before puberty? please don't make me choose which one is more scary!

[wix]

well, i'm due to start my period never, so i can't commisserate there. i am, however, a little blue re my diagnosis of syndrome x/metabolic syndrome this afternoon. apparently i'm not a PCOS girl anymore because i managed to have a baby. so, when they say, "get pregnant and it will cure your PCOS!" what they really mean is, "get pregnant and we'll shift your diagnosis!" i suppose i shouldn't be too upset, since i am finally working with a doctor who wants to treat my grab-bag of problems aggressively. anyway, i'll think good house thoughts for y'all. something's bound to go your way, you're due.